This is not going well....

I need counseling. There I said it. It's out there now. No going back. I can't even pinpoint what is wrong. I just know it's something. I feel...wrong. Off Anxious. D is having a high stress time at work. I can't help it. I don't like that. I really wish there was something I could do. I think it's a control thing. I also am struggaling with the trying to concieve issue. I am terrified this will set me back. In my mind every time I get my period or someone announces there pregnancy I hear the soup nazi (a la seinfeild) screamign NO BABY FOR YOU!!! So yeah...counceling. I have 1 week till my first session. I just need to make it a week. Just a week. just a week.