Ok so I am not gonna lie...I love make-up...and hair products...and clothes...and shoes (oh dear sweet lord do I love me some shoes!)
i always try to look good when I leave the house...or at least you know...normal.
Now that the website people of walmart is such a hit I am so incredibly paranoid about how I look when we go grocery shopping it isn't even funny. I know I know...t shirt shorts ponytail socks and shoes...should be fine...maybe some base powder and lipgloss.
But I am pregnant now to...and although everyone who see's me knows I'm pregnant...I don't have the typical "baby bump"...in other words...i feel I look like the stay puft marshmellow man.
I just know I will be on that website one day...and I also know it is parania to the max....
*sigh* 7 months down 2 more to go....maybe I will just stay in doors for the next 4 months...lol
(although if the weather doesnt change real soon...as in cool the eff down...that may be a very real possobility
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Interwebz...you get a gold star!
So long story short D has not seen his bio-dad since he was 4. His father actually passed away when he was about 14. And as far as he is concerned his dad is the man who raised him (techniclly his step dad)
a week ago a woman on Myspace wrote him a message asking if he possiblly was her nephew whom she has not seen in many many years.
He is.
Funny thing is this...He didn't know his dad had any brothers or sisters...apparently he has 7! And D's paternal Grandmother (Whom he vagly remembers and though had pased away at this point) is still alive and has been serching for him as well for years.
in a matter of days D's family has doubled.
His mother was so happy to hear that his aunt had contacted him and his dad assured him he did not feel any negative feelings about him talking and getting to know his bio-dads family (which was very important to D)
Good Job internets!
a week ago a woman on Myspace wrote him a message asking if he possiblly was her nephew whom she has not seen in many many years.
He is.
Funny thing is this...He didn't know his dad had any brothers or sisters...apparently he has 7! And D's paternal Grandmother (Whom he vagly remembers and though had pased away at this point) is still alive and has been serching for him as well for years.
in a matter of days D's family has doubled.
His mother was so happy to hear that his aunt had contacted him and his dad assured him he did not feel any negative feelings about him talking and getting to know his bio-dads family (which was very important to D)
Good Job internets!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
The great cake massacre of 2009...
otherwise known as why i dislike store bought cake mix!
So D has a sweet tooth...bad! Every night before bed he has one of three things.
1)Milk and dove caramel chocolate
2)Milk and Reese's cups
3)Milk and cake
I usually make a cake for us 2 times a week. I don't mind because I Love baking and cooking and I love cake.
Typically it is either a red Velvet cake with cream cheese frosting or a yellow butter cake with chocolate frosting and it is always homemade. But this week we did get cake mix from the store.
I have no illusions that I will be the super mom who looks beautiful has a clean house a clean child a fantastic dinner and still have time to make homade dessert twice a week.
Clean child and great dinner...I can do. Clean house...a must. Looking beautiful...it's me soooo I have a natural fierceness which will shine through...but homemade desserts twice a week...welll...maybe not. So we decided to try cake mix...just to see how it turns out.
*sigh*
1)more expensive. With what we spent on 2 cakes...I could have mad 4 from scratch.
2)maybe it was old cake mix but the cake didn't come out nice. It sank in the middle and stuck to the pan even though I greased them. then when I iced it...it crumbled and tore as I tried to spread the icing.
3)my icing is better...just sayin.
So the end result was something worthy of the website
Cake wreaks!
and it was OK.
that's right just OK. Not "oh baby this was awesome" or "mmmmmmmm nom nom nom"
I also did not have fun making it.
I will just stick to homade goodies and cake mix from the store be dammed!
So D has a sweet tooth...bad! Every night before bed he has one of three things.
1)Milk and dove caramel chocolate
2)Milk and Reese's cups
3)Milk and cake
I usually make a cake for us 2 times a week. I don't mind because I Love baking and cooking and I love cake.
Typically it is either a red Velvet cake with cream cheese frosting or a yellow butter cake with chocolate frosting and it is always homemade. But this week we did get cake mix from the store.
I have no illusions that I will be the super mom who looks beautiful has a clean house a clean child a fantastic dinner and still have time to make homade dessert twice a week.
Clean child and great dinner...I can do. Clean house...a must. Looking beautiful...it's me soooo I have a natural fierceness which will shine through...but homemade desserts twice a week...welll...maybe not. So we decided to try cake mix...just to see how it turns out.
*sigh*
1)more expensive. With what we spent on 2 cakes...I could have mad 4 from scratch.
2)maybe it was old cake mix but the cake didn't come out nice. It sank in the middle and stuck to the pan even though I greased them. then when I iced it...it crumbled and tore as I tried to spread the icing.
3)my icing is better...just sayin.
So the end result was something worthy of the website
Cake wreaks!
and it was OK.
that's right just OK. Not "oh baby this was awesome" or "mmmmmmmm nom nom nom"
I also did not have fun making it.
I will just stick to homade goodies and cake mix from the store be dammed!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
To whome it may concern...
Ugh...I am being so incositant with bloggin on this page! sorry guys...i get better!
For my triumphant return I give you
Mail...
Dear red ants who have decided to inhabite our home,
Seriously? We have tried to be nice. We have tried to use alternative pest control so as not to kill yo guys. But you are now taking advantage of our hopitality. This means WAR! Enjoy your time...while it last!
Sincerly,
So not enjoying your presance!
Dear people who have no boundries,
To my friends and family who enjoy my company. Yes I love you all and love seeing you and hearing from you. That being said...
Between the hours of 8 in the morning and noon D and I are usually either A) sleeping or B) running around getting ready for work. We unplud the phone so as not to be disturbed so we can continue sleeping or getting ready for the day. if the phone is not plugged in and you can not get ahold of us that does mean you should just "drop in". Call back later or send one of us a message via myspace facebook email text message. we will get it. And if we say " not a good time" or "come by later please" don't get [issy with us. We are not here to cater to your schedual! On that same note when the baby gets here...if you just drop by we will not answer the door. if you knock once and no one answers do not...I repet DO NOT continue to bang upon the door for five min or try to get our attention by yelling "HEY YOU GUYS! I KNOW YOUR HOME! LET ME IN!" through the door. not only is this rude to us but we live in an apartment building and it also disturbs our neighbors!
kthnxbi!
Sincerly,
Tired of D having bad mornings because of you guys!
Dear Myspace'
You know myspace a lot of people are starting to leave you. Many of my "peeps" have relocated to facebook. Yes I do have a facebook account but I still love you more. and do you want to know why? because I HATE APPS! I don't like them or the constant stream of request that clutter up my mailbox because of it. But now you are going the way of facebook and I am dealing with the APPS on you as well...PLEASE STOP!
Sincerly,
Don't go changin...I love you just the way you are!
Dear Medicaid,
Please get your asses together!
Sincerly,
that is all
Dear spawn dancing around my ute,
Mommy loves you...but really the dance party at 2 in the morning that wakes me up? 2 am??? really?!?!?! I love feeling you move around in there I do...but could you like sleep till 8 is and then move around? this does not bode well for you r future sleeping habits!
Sincerly,
Someone who loves you no matter what time it is :)
For my triumphant return I give you
Mail...
Dear red ants who have decided to inhabite our home,
Seriously? We have tried to be nice. We have tried to use alternative pest control so as not to kill yo guys. But you are now taking advantage of our hopitality. This means WAR! Enjoy your time...while it last!
Sincerly,
So not enjoying your presance!
Dear people who have no boundries,
To my friends and family who enjoy my company. Yes I love you all and love seeing you and hearing from you. That being said...
Between the hours of 8 in the morning and noon D and I are usually either A) sleeping or B) running around getting ready for work. We unplud the phone so as not to be disturbed so we can continue sleeping or getting ready for the day. if the phone is not plugged in and you can not get ahold of us that does mean you should just "drop in". Call back later or send one of us a message via myspace facebook email text message. we will get it. And if we say " not a good time" or "come by later please" don't get [issy with us. We are not here to cater to your schedual! On that same note when the baby gets here...if you just drop by we will not answer the door. if you knock once and no one answers do not...I repet DO NOT continue to bang upon the door for five min or try to get our attention by yelling "HEY YOU GUYS! I KNOW YOUR HOME! LET ME IN!" through the door. not only is this rude to us but we live in an apartment building and it also disturbs our neighbors!
kthnxbi!
Sincerly,
Tired of D having bad mornings because of you guys!
Dear Myspace'
You know myspace a lot of people are starting to leave you. Many of my "peeps" have relocated to facebook. Yes I do have a facebook account but I still love you more. and do you want to know why? because I HATE APPS! I don't like them or the constant stream of request that clutter up my mailbox because of it. But now you are going the way of facebook and I am dealing with the APPS on you as well...PLEASE STOP!
Sincerly,
Don't go changin...I love you just the way you are!
Dear Medicaid,
Please get your asses together!
Sincerly,
that is all
Dear spawn dancing around my ute,
Mommy loves you...but really the dance party at 2 in the morning that wakes me up? 2 am??? really?!?!?! I love feeling you move around in there I do...but could you like sleep till 8 is and then move around? this does not bode well for you r future sleeping habits!
Sincerly,
Someone who loves you no matter what time it is :)
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Is it me? noooooo of course not I'm perfect!
A few weeks ago I wrote a blog asking about outing an ex who I knew was lying to not only himself but also to others. I of course (because I am way to paranoid about getting sued)asked his permission to use him in a blog. He went a little postal on me via facebook and brought up nasties in our former relationship. Which got me thinking about something.
When a relationship ends well i.e. both parties agree it isnt working out no one blames the other for not trying to change or forgetting to pick up their dirty laundry and things move on. But this relationship was diffrent. I would love to say that I am happier in my life without him and that it was all his fault and to be honest most of our friends felt it was and I was justified. But...i was wrong to.
We didn't date long...just over 3 months. I was(and still am) a very passionate and physical person. I love kissing and cuddling and lets face it...I love sex. I don't know if it was to fill a void or something but i freely admit I love the closeness when I am with someone intamently. I really love it with david. I can honestly say I have the best now.
My ex was not a physical person. He could make me laugh in a second and if I had been in a better place in my life I would have never dated him but we would have been friends. About a month after we started dating I began to get irritated with little things. every day I would drive from winter garden to universal studios to pick him up from work and take him home...often I would stop at the store for him. He never once gave me money for gas and twice I ran out. On his days off he didn't want to do anyhting but sleep or hang out with his work friends at a bar I apparently wasn't allowed to go to because I wasn't "in the group". ouch. I felt alone. when I moved out of my mothers house into my own place he would insist on me driving him to his place (which was about 5 min down the road in the opposite direction)and when he finally did move in with us it became apparent very soon that his standards of house keeping and mine were vastly diffrent. I got tired of coming home from work to a mess. I think the final straw was the fact that he made me feel like an absolutely horrible person for wanting to be physical. I was tired of being ignored and lied to and put on the back burner all for the sake of "I need to focus on getting my life straight right now". fine...then why are we even together.
And then did the unthinkable...the one thing I swore I would never ever do. I cheated on him.
The funny thing is the party david and I met at...he was supposed to go to with me...but he once again bailed on me and I was actually pissed.
And then I found david we connected and next thing I know we are having a passion filled love affair that would rival any harlquin romance novel (although david doesn't have fabio's fantastic hair)
Dave realized something was up...he tried to get me back but it was to late. and he was bitter.
I could end the story there but it would not be fair to him.
Unknown to me he had a chemical imbalance that prevented him from getting aroused and feeling the feelings of passion. He was also huffing air in a can (although he wouldn't admit it even when caught). I wish he would have just talked to me but he didn't...everything was joke.
Would we still be together if he had talked or gone with me to the party? I doubt it. I love david and he is the man god has put in my life. But I still feel extrem guilt for what I put my ex through.
When a relationship ends well i.e. both parties agree it isnt working out no one blames the other for not trying to change or forgetting to pick up their dirty laundry and things move on. But this relationship was diffrent. I would love to say that I am happier in my life without him and that it was all his fault and to be honest most of our friends felt it was and I was justified. But...i was wrong to.
We didn't date long...just over 3 months. I was(and still am) a very passionate and physical person. I love kissing and cuddling and lets face it...I love sex. I don't know if it was to fill a void or something but i freely admit I love the closeness when I am with someone intamently. I really love it with david. I can honestly say I have the best now.
My ex was not a physical person. He could make me laugh in a second and if I had been in a better place in my life I would have never dated him but we would have been friends. About a month after we started dating I began to get irritated with little things. every day I would drive from winter garden to universal studios to pick him up from work and take him home...often I would stop at the store for him. He never once gave me money for gas and twice I ran out. On his days off he didn't want to do anyhting but sleep or hang out with his work friends at a bar I apparently wasn't allowed to go to because I wasn't "in the group". ouch. I felt alone. when I moved out of my mothers house into my own place he would insist on me driving him to his place (which was about 5 min down the road in the opposite direction)and when he finally did move in with us it became apparent very soon that his standards of house keeping and mine were vastly diffrent. I got tired of coming home from work to a mess. I think the final straw was the fact that he made me feel like an absolutely horrible person for wanting to be physical. I was tired of being ignored and lied to and put on the back burner all for the sake of "I need to focus on getting my life straight right now". fine...then why are we even together.
And then did the unthinkable...the one thing I swore I would never ever do. I cheated on him.
The funny thing is the party david and I met at...he was supposed to go to with me...but he once again bailed on me and I was actually pissed.
And then I found david we connected and next thing I know we are having a passion filled love affair that would rival any harlquin romance novel (although david doesn't have fabio's fantastic hair)
Dave realized something was up...he tried to get me back but it was to late. and he was bitter.
I could end the story there but it would not be fair to him.
Unknown to me he had a chemical imbalance that prevented him from getting aroused and feeling the feelings of passion. He was also huffing air in a can (although he wouldn't admit it even when caught). I wish he would have just talked to me but he didn't...everything was joke.
Would we still be together if he had talked or gone with me to the party? I doubt it. I love david and he is the man god has put in my life. But I still feel extrem guilt for what I put my ex through.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
have you ever just wanted to...
call someone out for no reason? before you brand me as the wicked witch of the west let me explain. I got another random message from a former boyfriend the other day talking about how relationships are bullshit and he can't understand how bad things happen and he keeps getting hurt when he doesn't do anything wrong blah blah blah. It is taking everything in me not to write him back and say
A)Who in the world said you would never get hurt as long as you always did the right thing?
B)You have a tendancy not to listen...ever.
C)You make every serious talk into a long random joke via family guy
D)In the relationship everything is about you and your life and getting it back on track. If god forbid your partner needs anything or any type of support then you make them feel like crap.
I really want to write all of this...but can't see how it would do any good! lol
In other random news and events...
brina...irene...are you guys still out there? i miss NMM...I miss pretty pictures and I miss Nic Cage Thursday...I tired to reproduce it but it just didnt work out!
go to you tube and type in mom cancels world of warcraft account...and enjoy. you will not be disapointed i promise! lol
A)Who in the world said you would never get hurt as long as you always did the right thing?
B)You have a tendancy not to listen...ever.
C)You make every serious talk into a long random joke via family guy
D)In the relationship everything is about you and your life and getting it back on track. If god forbid your partner needs anything or any type of support then you make them feel like crap.
I really want to write all of this...but can't see how it would do any good! lol
In other random news and events...
brina...irene...are you guys still out there? i miss NMM...I miss pretty pictures and I miss Nic Cage Thursday...I tired to reproduce it but it just didnt work out!
go to you tube and type in mom cancels world of warcraft account...and enjoy. you will not be disapointed i promise! lol
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Watership Down (and why I may never be the same again)
So after many weeks of constant complaining about the numerous times I have read all the books in my private library david and I finally went book shoping. Normally i like boarders BUT i have found some of my favorite books at thrift stores (and hello...they are like 1.00 there...come on!) So as david and I were diving into the bin o' books at savers david oulls one out looks at the cover and says 'oh hunny look! It's watersip down! I love this book!" Because he loved the book and I loved him I threw it along with a number of others in my basket and we proceded to the cheackout.
I started reading watership down (or as I call it now W.D.) on firday....I finished it last night.
I thought it was about submarines (hello...WATERSHIP....I mean come on)
I thought beign about bunny's it would be mostly happy with some sad parts...like bambie
I will never look at bunnies the same again...ever!
I am starting slaughter house 5 next. *Sigh* Im beginging to wonder if I should bring david book shopping with me anymore...
paranoid about th wildlife thoughts!
Michelle"And apparentlly there is a cartoon based on the book that I must see....crap"Gasaway
I started reading watership down (or as I call it now W.D.) on firday....I finished it last night.
I thought it was about submarines (hello...WATERSHIP....I mean come on)
I thought beign about bunny's it would be mostly happy with some sad parts...like bambie
I will never look at bunnies the same again...ever!
I am starting slaughter house 5 next. *Sigh* Im beginging to wonder if I should bring david book shopping with me anymore...
paranoid about th wildlife thoughts!
Michelle"And apparentlly there is a cartoon based on the book that I must see....crap"Gasaway
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