Thursday, April 15, 2010

The hardest part

she is three months old now. I can't belive it has only been three months.

Yesterday someone asked me what is the hardest part. I had to think.

The hardest part for me was the first two weeks. The worry was she breathing?why isn't she making any noise? What is that noise she is making????

I struggled harder than anyone can possiblly have known. Staying up till 7 in the morning because she wouldn't go to sleep. and then waking up at 9 for a feeding. I was exsausted emotional and on edge.

But it got better.

I was lucky enough to get the help I needed and I had D who was the most supportive amazing partner.

So the hardest part of mommyhood..for me...was admiting that i needed help. That i couldn't do it alone. and that the mommy instinct...didn't kick in immedietly

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