Sunday, April 26, 2009

Not Me Monday

ok so technically it won't be Monday for like 2 1/2 more hours but...figured I would get a head start.

Interesting week. very interesting. I did not totally have to pat myself on the back for coming up with the idea for Cooking with new pet project...where I star as the chef in a cooking show....that has regular cleavage breaks instead of commercial network here I come!

I did not do the happy dance for losing yet 1 more pound!

I did not get asked out on a date for the 3rd time this month from the same isn't funny or flattering it is just annoying.

I didn't trip walking up the stairs at the apartment...twice...within a 2 min time frame.

I did start dance classes this week but did not twirl right into the room length mirrors doing some practice spins because I was distracted...because I was looking at my self in the mirrors!

and I did not stupidly take naked pics of my self (alright so I was wearing my unmentionables) from several angles to "see what I looked like now' only to feel nauseated by what I saw...How did I get this bad?!?! My first thought being "oh gawd! David has to look at this when we make love? eww!" I was completely first. but now I have decided it was the best thing I could do. It will completely motivate me to look better and exercises. i have been doing yoga and this week I joined a dance class (yeah for jazz and erotic dance lessons!) I realized that even though the yoga kept me...stretchy and ass...actually no my entire body was pretty much outta shape.

I have taken dance before. i started ballet when I was 4 (I was pigeon toed) and took ballet and tap (and one year of jazz) till I was 13 I did cheer leading and played softball. And as I look back i realize my down fall...High school theater! Which is devastating. because I love it! but srsly. late nights at rehearsal early morning calls for "in schools" outta town competitions and all of this was fueled by fast food (McDonald's at best...taco bell at worst) or 24 hour restaurants (helllllo Denny's)
cigarettes Pepsi and no doz (good gawd the amount of no doz I consumed!) not to mention late night adventures to do god only knows what around downtown Orlando and the metro west area. body's downfall I tell you!

OK so this was kinda sorta a not me Monday...more of a "yes I finally see how large I have become and will now be doubling my weight loss efforts but don't expect me to take full responsibility for this weight obviously it is not my fault" blog.

So I have saved the pics to my computer and intend to take new ones once a month. I have also pulled down my favorite pair of pants and my two favorite pairs of shorts and put them in the closet hanging in the front to remind me daily of what i am working towards.

Happy Thoughts!

Michelle"now...i be going to bed..."Gasaway


I did not just stab my self in the finger with a toothpick whhich I was using to break through the safty seal on the cream for out coffee...ugh*


becoming brina said...

That's a big week for a little girl! And yes, good LORD, the no doz, coffee, cigarettes and Denny's we consumed in those days. I'm now a non-smoker, limit myself to 1 caffeinated beverage per day, drink green tea instead of coffee, and haven't been to a Denny's-esque establishment in over a year. THANK GAWD. I really don't know how we survived into our 20s.
OH and where are you taking dance and yoga?!

Captain Cleavage said...

Actually (and this will sound waaaaay cooler than it actually is) I am taking private lessons...let me explain.

My neigbor is a yoga instructer. She heard of my plight and knew I wanted to start yoga but being of the "I have only enough money for 1/4 of a tank of gas this week because I wasted all the rest on little luxeries like food and toothpaste" group and knowing I was going to use a yoga dvd she offerd to help me so that I could do it properlly etc...then she realized how Faboulus I am and we have been together ever since. The dance class started when I ran into a girl I was in tap with years ago and we were talking about dance I said I missed tap she said you should take exotic dance lessons their fun I said I don't know any studios she said oh just come over to my place...i have a studio and teach a couple classes a week to some people you can join and see if you like it and we can go on from there...see totally not as cool as it sounds! lol

becoming brina said...

Nice!! Is it Stripping Slim Fitness by any chance? I took striptease there last year and want to start up again as finances allow.